I could talk about how chaotic the world is right now and that I'm finally starting to pull out of the deep, depressive hole that I tried burying myself in again - but I'm not. These are facts, everyone is depressed, anxious, and sleep deprived because of stress created from this pandemic that we're having to face.
So, I'm going to tell you three things that I have done to attempt coping. 1. Getting more in touch with my roots. I've spent a lot of time cooking in general, most people have. But I stopped by the Asian market and I grabbed the ingredients I needed to make Turon. For those of you who don't know what turon is, it is an egg roll made with a saba banana, fried and then coated in caramel. This is typically a holiday dish but the world feels like it's burning to the ground right now so I could use literally anything that would give me an ounce of positive energy. I am also going to try out biko, a sweet rice cake, sometime soon. 2. Calling my family. I know a lot of people don't like doing this, but it helps with the anxiety that I generally have. I like knowing what my grandparents are doing to pass the time. On my mom's side, my grandpa is making his own wooden cutting boards. On my dad's side, my Lola is cooking and cheering me on as I continue to learn recipes that she wishes she could be teaching me herself. I worry about all of them constantly so it helps to know that they are doing what they can to salvage whatever amount of normalcy that they can. I wish that I had a safe bubble to put them in, one rid of disease, heartache, and anguish. But it would have to be a pretty big bubble. One to fit both of their massive gardens and all of the love that I hold for them. 3. Reflection. This wasn't great for me because I have that internal monologue that tells me I could've taken steps in a better direction. One that would have made me cringe less, helped me to avoid losing people that I wish I didn't, or maybe even make me happier in the long run. Reflection is healthy, it is good for some. Just not for me. But yeah, I hope everyone is staying sane, safe, and healthy. |
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